Saturday, October 11, 2008
♥ The Mom diary.
So I took this mom & baby compatibility test with our astrological signs, we're both libras so I was pretty interested in seeing our results, I thought it was going to say "you'll butt heads for the rest of your lives!" Instead, I got this.
Mom
Libra
The Scales
Sept. 23-Oct. 22
Lucky you, Libra. You're likely the mom that all the other moms secretly wish they could be: You always look good, your baby is fashionably dressed, and the preschool teachers think you're the exemplary mom specimen. Libras are naturally charming and have excellent taste and an enviable ability to keep things running smoothly. And your pitch-perfect sense of diplomacy? It will come in handy time and again at school and on the playground.
Don't forget to lighten up a little, though -- remember that mess and occasional chaos are an inevitable part of life with a baby. It's not a reflection on your parenting skills if one day you just can't seem to coordinate your baby's shoes with her overalls. And when Cheerios get squished in between the car seats? Let it go, mama.
Baby
Libra
The Scales
Sept. 23-Oct. 22
What a charmer you've brought into the world! Libras are blessed with grace and an inherent ability to captivate everyone around them. Give your social child ample opportunities to interact with her peers, such as baby classes and playdates (she'll be Ms. Popularity long before she starts preschool). Consider throwing a big party for her first birthday -- she'll likely get a kick out of getting dressed up and being doted on by loved ones. And bust a move together: Libras love music and dancing.
So far, it seems true.
I was thinking about what mine said, "you're the mom other moms secretly wish they could be: you always look good." I wish that was true. I mean, I could work on that, go back to who I used to be, but I have no drive anymore. I always say I'm going to go to the gym but I make up an excuse for why I can't. I think karma has come to bite me in the ass, that bitch. I lost all that weight, I got an enormous head and I think this is karma's way of saying HAHA! Next time you won't be so egolicious, I made you twice the weight you were! ..Bitch.
I feel like I lost out on a lot of chances for memories for Kairie, I rarely took pictures of the two of us because I didn't want her to look back on pix and be like, geez mom, you were freaking fat, you know? I know she wouldn't do that, but thats my stupid lack of confidence talking. Boo.
Baby weight has been by far the hardest weight to lose. I lost weight so easily before, now it's like nahhhhhhhh I'll stay here and keep you warm throughout the year. No bitch, I live in hawaii, I don't need my winter coat of flubs.
Yes, mindless ranting again.
Mom
Libra
The Scales
Sept. 23-Oct. 22
Lucky you, Libra. You're likely the mom that all the other moms secretly wish they could be: You always look good, your baby is fashionably dressed, and the preschool teachers think you're the exemplary mom specimen. Libras are naturally charming and have excellent taste and an enviable ability to keep things running smoothly. And your pitch-perfect sense of diplomacy? It will come in handy time and again at school and on the playground.
Don't forget to lighten up a little, though -- remember that mess and occasional chaos are an inevitable part of life with a baby. It's not a reflection on your parenting skills if one day you just can't seem to coordinate your baby's shoes with her overalls. And when Cheerios get squished in between the car seats? Let it go, mama.
Baby
Libra
The Scales
Sept. 23-Oct. 22
What a charmer you've brought into the world! Libras are blessed with grace and an inherent ability to captivate everyone around them. Give your social child ample opportunities to interact with her peers, such as baby classes and playdates (she'll be Ms. Popularity long before she starts preschool). Consider throwing a big party for her first birthday -- she'll likely get a kick out of getting dressed up and being doted on by loved ones. And bust a move together: Libras love music and dancing.
So far, it seems true.
I was thinking about what mine said, "you're the mom other moms secretly wish they could be: you always look good." I wish that was true. I mean, I could work on that, go back to who I used to be, but I have no drive anymore. I always say I'm going to go to the gym but I make up an excuse for why I can't. I think karma has come to bite me in the ass, that bitch. I lost all that weight, I got an enormous head and I think this is karma's way of saying HAHA! Next time you won't be so egolicious, I made you twice the weight you were! ..Bitch.
I feel like I lost out on a lot of chances for memories for Kairie, I rarely took pictures of the two of us because I didn't want her to look back on pix and be like, geez mom, you were freaking fat, you know? I know she wouldn't do that, but thats my stupid lack of confidence talking. Boo.
Baby weight has been by far the hardest weight to lose. I lost weight so easily before, now it's like nahhhhhhhh I'll stay here and keep you warm throughout the year. No bitch, I live in hawaii, I don't need my winter coat of flubs.
Yes, mindless ranting again.
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Wednesday, October 8, 2008
♥ If I go crazy..
Have you ever looked in the mirror and pictured yourself as something you aren't? I used to be such a dreamer, I'd look in the mirror and see the first female President, a supermodel, a lawyer, the weather girl, when in reality all of that was only hopes. Hopes that slowly started fading. By 18 I found myself standing in front of the mirror in an army combat uniform looking at a soldier, soon after I stood in my maternity uniform, staring at a pregnant soldier. Now I look in the mirror and see an overweight nobody.
All my hopes of becoming someone slowly started drifting like they did when I was a kid. A new reality set in, I'm a mom. I'm a mom who stays at home all day. You'd expect the house to be tidy, dinner cooked, but I don't do that. I can't keep up with that. I feel like I lost my identity. I'm just another face in the crowd. I'm not the same ambitious person I used to be.
When I was a kid, I took on different identities, at 5 years old, I demanded people call me Sparkleheart, at 7 I became a super hero, I even had super powers. My mom caught me, standing in the kitchen wearing my get up, I had on a blue bathing suit with a pair of my best underwear over it, white nylons, shoes, a belt with my favorite blanket attached to my shoulders, I stood in the kitchen staring at bacon, convincing either myself, or my family that I was cooking it with my eyes.
I've always been able to lose myself in ambition, hopes and dreams, why can't I get at least one of those identities back? If none of those, how can I dig deep into who I used to be and bring out someone who CAN be myself, a wife and most importantly, a mom?
I just need some sort of reminder of who I used to be.
All my hopes of becoming someone slowly started drifting like they did when I was a kid. A new reality set in, I'm a mom. I'm a mom who stays at home all day. You'd expect the house to be tidy, dinner cooked, but I don't do that. I can't keep up with that. I feel like I lost my identity. I'm just another face in the crowd. I'm not the same ambitious person I used to be.
When I was a kid, I took on different identities, at 5 years old, I demanded people call me Sparkleheart, at 7 I became a super hero, I even had super powers. My mom caught me, standing in the kitchen wearing my get up, I had on a blue bathing suit with a pair of my best underwear over it, white nylons, shoes, a belt with my favorite blanket attached to my shoulders, I stood in the kitchen staring at bacon, convincing either myself, or my family that I was cooking it with my eyes.
I've always been able to lose myself in ambition, hopes and dreams, why can't I get at least one of those identities back? If none of those, how can I dig deep into who I used to be and bring out someone who CAN be myself, a wife and most importantly, a mom?
I just need some sort of reminder of who I used to be.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
♥ Let it be..
It's crazy how much has changed since I wrote my last blog. Some for the good, some, not so much.
Typical Jennifer fashion, I'm ready to throw in the towel.
Typical Jennifer fashion, I'm ready to throw in the towel.
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Monday, August 27, 2007
♥ The man of my dreams..
I'm not sure why, but I was listening to a song (COMPLETELY unrelated to anything, mind you) and it make think of Korea, and when JJ and I first got together. I am honestly the luckiest woman on earth. I'm sure most women say that about themselves, but seriously, Jeremy is the most stand up guy I've ever come across in my life. He was an avid smoker, smoked TONS. I asked him to stop, he did. Cold turkey. He later told me the only reason he did it like that, was because I didn't give him an ultimatum. I just asked nicely. :) I've never had a guy who made me laugh the way he does. He's not afraid to show his feelings, even if I call him a homo or a fag for it. He'd do anything for me without thinking twice. I've never known love like that. He's the epitome of perfect. I want to cry now.. lol. I love thinking about him, I love talking about him. I talk about him a lot.. A lot a lot. I brag about him mostly. I miss him so much.. I can't wait to be with him again. Once he's here, it means Kairie will be here.
I love him.
I love him.
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007
♥ Finally..
Well, I got me another blog, I like this one though, thanks Cat! I have a feeling with the new baby coming & all, I'll actually be using this one. I can't believe the day after tomorrow I'll already be 34 weeks! I remember I was like just 4 weeks bitching that this was going to take entirely too long! My baby shower is in about 2 1/2 weeks and we haven't sent out the invitations yet. =/ We should really get on that ey?
I got some good news today. :) We've been pretty upset because Jeremy's leadership won't stop giving him a hard time about basically everything. Today he was told it was like that for him because they want to promote him! He got his E4 when he first got to sill & as soon as he gets to E4P they want to do it! I'm excited, but at the same time it's going to suck because if I thought they relied on him a lot now, it's going to be 10 fold! But whatev, it's what he wants.. Plus we get more money. :):)
I've got a lunchdate with Crystal today, but I've been working on this so I have yet to get ready, thankfully she's running late. haha. I'm so sad. :(
I've really got to start getting ready. Adios!
I got some good news today. :) We've been pretty upset because Jeremy's leadership won't stop giving him a hard time about basically everything. Today he was told it was like that for him because they want to promote him! He got his E4 when he first got to sill & as soon as he gets to E4P they want to do it! I'm excited, but at the same time it's going to suck because if I thought they relied on him a lot now, it's going to be 10 fold! But whatev, it's what he wants.. Plus we get more money. :):)
I've got a lunchdate with Crystal today, but I've been working on this so I have yet to get ready, thankfully she's running late. haha. I'm so sad. :(
I've really got to start getting ready. Adios!
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